Dealing with doubt was always something I struggled with. People always told me to not doubt, but it’s easier said than done. Lately I have been going through a rough patch. You see…things may seem perfect, my life may seem great especially on social media. I try to have a positive attitude, try to encourage others but behind the screen some days it’s hard.
Lately I’ve had to make choices that will impact my life. Throughout it all I’ve seen God show up and show me His faithfulness but yet some how I still have doubt in me. Some days I feel as what God has been doing and IS doing isn’t working and I’m just stuck in this waiting period where nothing is happening. Then doubt starts to creep in and I’m like dang..maybe I’m making a big mistake, maybe this isn’t going to work, maybe God didn’t want me to do this and instead it was just my own doing.
“Summing it all up, friends, I’d say you’ll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse.”
But then I remember His faithfulness. How many times He’s came through for me, how He’s done things for me that I couldn’t have done myself! If you focus on the negative, if you focus on the things that bring you down you won’t see or will forget that things that God has already done in your life. Whether it was something big or some something small that God has done, it doesn’t matter because He still did it!
God has put me in this place of waiting. I don’t know why, I don’t know if He’s trying to teach me something in the midst of this waiting or if He’s helping me grow as a person in the waiting. All I know is that even if I don’t see Him working, He is working behind the scenes. I have to put aside that doubt that I have, focus on what God has done and have faith in what He WILL do.
This past weekend was really hard for me and I was praying for God to give me a sign or something to help me through this time. Then on Sunday morning in church the worship band sang this song called Take Courage by Bethel Music. Man.. that song hit me HARD.
Take courage my heart, stay steadfast my soul
He’s in the waiting, He’s in the waiting
Hold onto your hope, as your triumph unfolds
He’s never failing, He’s never failing
Those lyrics, each one felt like God was speaking right to me. If you are someone who’s dealing with doubt, discouragement or is just going through a hard time listen to that song. Let God speak to you, let His peace comfort you. Dealing with doubt is one of those things that I have to fight every day, and every day I will fight and remind myself that MY God has power over my doubt. He has power to change any situation. He IS there in the waiting.